Two month appointment!

Well today Aavan had his two month appointment, it went really well. His pediatrician seemed happy with his progress. She advised that Aavan needs to do more tummy time. He got his first set of vaccines, I was not in the room but I could hear him cry. He seemed to do alright though. I just hope that he handles the vaccines nicely.

Aavan is really funny sometimes, this morning papa was trying to pat him to sleep Aavan started patting him back. He tries to copy what we do. He has also learned to suck on his fist. Sometimes, he is unable to find his fist and that makes him mad. O yes, he does get mad. He can also be very stubborn sometime but I can't complain he probably gets that from me. He is truly in love with is diaper changing station, the moment you take him to the diaper changing station he is all smiles. He does not like wet diapers at all. We have to change his diapers 25 times a day. James is hoping that he will be easy to potty train. I hope he is right.

He has started liking his swing, it helps him calm down and sleep better. last night however he would wake up every time we tried to get him out of the swing. James finally succeeded.

I hope Aavan sleeps well tonight and wakes up all better and does not fuss too much.

Aavan completes his second month!

Today our little boy completes his second month. I am so proud of him already. Everyday he does something new and exciting and my heart melts with happiness seeing him. I was not sure initially if I would be able to enjoy his company instead of being nervous all the time. It is difficult to explain the sentiments I had when I first held him. I was happy, in fact I had never experienced such happiness but I was also very very nervous and scared. I was not sure what I was in for. Not a single day went by when I did not cry. I was never sure if I was doing things the way it should be done. There is no certification available for becoming a perfect parent. You are certified parent the moment you hold your little one in your arms, in fact much before that. You have over nine months to prepare yourself for what's to come. Well, being a first time mother I was not sure what to expect. No matter how hard I tried I felt as though there was something missing. I needed to do better and I still feel that way but now I think I am able to enjoy my little one's company instead of just worrying all the time.
I have learned to accept that worry goes hand in hand with parenthood. I love being a mom, I love holding him. I feel happy when I am able to calm him when he is upset. My heart smiles when I see him respond to my voice and smile at me. My heart pains when I hear him cry. Motherhood brings emotions that is difficult to explain. Life changes a lot when you become a parent, I cannot imagine my life with out this change. Aavan completes my life, he completes me.
I would like to thank everyone for being there for me, for supporting me and loving when I was not so lovable. I could not have gone through this without the support of my family. I know for sure that I have the best family in the world.
My mom-in-law and step father-in-law loved me and cared for me even though I was angry, irritated all the time. I snapped at my father all the time but he showered love. James, was amazing (is amazing) he seemed to love me and understand me more with each passing moment. My sisters though far away were there for me in their on way. I have the best sister-in-law and brother-in-law. Krista and Mike are two beautiful people I have had a chance to know, Krista my sister, my friend left no stone unturned to make sure I felt better. I love you guys. I know that Aavan is very lucky to have such wonderful family.
I would like to thank my friends for their good wishes.
Aavan continues to grow beautifully and I grow with him everyday. I learn so much from him :)
Love you beta...

Aavan on the way :)

I waited three minutes for the pregnancy test results, the longest three minutes ever. I cannot express how I felt, I had so many mixed emotions. I felt Nervous, Excited, Love and Happiness. For a day or two it did not even feel real.

The first twenty weeks were not easy. There were times when I was not sure if I could make it through, I was diagnosed with Hypermesis gravidarum. I was sick all the time and I am certain I would not have been able to go through with James supporting me. He took care of me like never before and he was always there for me. He truly is my best friend.

On our twenty week ultrasound we found the sex of our baby. We were thrilled to know that we were having a boy, what a pretty sight he was. I could not get enough of him. It was pretty clear that we were having a boy from the ultrasound. James always told me we are having a boy.

Our family's have been thrilled and they have been there for us. We can see how excited they are and they are all waiting for Aavan's arrival. I feel so blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people.

As the weeks pass by, I feel it is another day closer to holding my son. However, I still don't feel prepared. I am nervous and I am not sure how will I take care of someone so tiny. I love talking to my little one and singing to him. I had never imagined that you could fall in love with someone you've never met, here I am today insanely in love with this little guy whom I am yet to meet.

"A mother's joy begins when new life is stirring inside... when a tiny heartbeat is heard for the very first time, and a playful kick reminds her that she is never alone."