Aavan completes his second month!

Today our little boy completes his second month. I am so proud of him already. Everyday he does something new and exciting and my heart melts with happiness seeing him. I was not sure initially if I would be able to enjoy his company instead of being nervous all the time. It is difficult to explain the sentiments I had when I first held him. I was happy, in fact I had never experienced such happiness but I was also very very nervous and scared. I was not sure what I was in for. Not a single day went by when I did not cry. I was never sure if I was doing things the way it should be done. There is no certification available for becoming a perfect parent. You are certified parent the moment you hold your little one in your arms, in fact much before that. You have over nine months to prepare yourself for what's to come. Well, being a first time mother I was not sure what to expect. No matter how hard I tried I felt as though there was something missing. I needed to do better and I still feel that way but now I think I am able to enjoy my little one's company instead of just worrying all the time.
I have learned to accept that worry goes hand in hand with parenthood. I love being a mom, I love holding him. I feel happy when I am able to calm him when he is upset. My heart smiles when I see him respond to my voice and smile at me. My heart pains when I hear him cry. Motherhood brings emotions that is difficult to explain. Life changes a lot when you become a parent, I cannot imagine my life with out this change. Aavan completes my life, he completes me.
I would like to thank everyone for being there for me, for supporting me and loving when I was not so lovable. I could not have gone through this without the support of my family. I know for sure that I have the best family in the world.
My mom-in-law and step father-in-law loved me and cared for me even though I was angry, irritated all the time. I snapped at my father all the time but he showered love. James, was amazing (is amazing) he seemed to love me and understand me more with each passing moment. My sisters though far away were there for me in their on way. I have the best sister-in-law and brother-in-law. Krista and Mike are two beautiful people I have had a chance to know, Krista my sister, my friend left no stone unturned to make sure I felt better. I love you guys. I know that Aavan is very lucky to have such wonderful family.
I would like to thank my friends for their good wishes.
Aavan continues to grow beautifully and I grow with him everyday. I learn so much from him :)
Love you beta...